don't hate me cuz i'm not beautiful

kinda funny that i'm having this kinda topic for this post,
but honestly i found that i have no potential to become a beauty,
even in the future~
WHOOPS~

eherm~
正体: 我的靓妈今天生日 ; )
谢谢在天上的外祖母生下我的妈妈她才能生下我~

为了庆祝,但是妈妈又不是很得空酱,
所以我决定,
明天自己一个人去唱K庆祝妈妈的生日~
xD

下个礼拜就是我的生日了 : D
那天拿成绩哟,
希望lecturer们不会叫我的家长去 =.="
不然我就没有happy的birthday了~
xD

就酱~
你喜欢.........
草莓酱? 番茄酱? 辣椒酱? 花生酱?
慢慢选我去睡觉了~
ciao~

eventually...

wahahaha~
不懂做么最近喜欢装逼,
一直在应用一些不常用的英文字~~
eventually = actually,
this is what i thought in the beginning XD
(伟大的~)GOOGLE translate讲是"最终" 的意思...
那这几天一直都有没有用对呀?

nyahahahaha~
这不重要,
重要的是...
是.........

都嘛叫你别装逼了~省得人家把你当傻逼哟~


bleh bleh bleh bleh~

bii, 你头痛我不怪你啦,
但是你泼我冷水我好伤心哟~~~~
hmm?
不懂自己讲错什么?
不
告
诉
你
: D
不然你会说我很小气
嘻嘻嘻嘻~
♥

i do lost a friend, i think...

pretty sad case,
i have no idea why he's having problem in between us,
but i do know i shouldn't try to mess up his life...
(whisper: why are you so sure that your guess is a right one? PERASAN people xD)
hahahaha~
but it's true,
i got no reply from him,
sigh~
so....
oh gosh i'm not good in this kinda problem,
just wish him good luck,
since he's like can't give up some thoughts?
woops i can't explain anything actually :x



are we still friend?
cuz i feel sad to loss a friend...
and pretty bad cuz you're mean to me...
oh whatever,
i'm not always an important person i guess,
everyone has their own journey,
HaH...

i'm temporary, lost

迷失了,
我其实没有真正清醒过...
已经把得过且过当作生活的主旨了,
厌恶,
但是我什么都没有去改变...
这就是我所不喜欢的,
所谓颓废...
hey,
you put no effort in your life,
but you're dreaming too much dude...

梦得太多想得太美,
却又闲得跷二郎腿...

hey BITCH,
whataya want from yourself?
you're just messing up your own life...

hey...

it's not about how much you make me happy and all your promises...
it's not about all the dreams u have with me in the future...
but dearest,
it's about how you protect my heart and don't let my tears fall...
sorry...
i'm really not that strong to protect your heart,
i'm just a female, a girl, a lady, a woman...
how come i don't have the rights to have a sweet dream every night?
how come i have to let my heart broken before you gave me a sound of laughter?
how come i ...
how come i have to feel guilty for every moves that i did wrong in accident?
how come i feel hard to smile in valentines day and couldn't sleep tight tonight?
how come i have to cry every time i mention about our relationship?
how come there's pressure i feel when you feel unhappy every night?
how could this all be?
huh?
how come...
how come...
the world is like ending and killing me in the dark...
come on...
isn't it VALENTINES DAY today?
please don't make my tears fall like i'm losing myself...

ouch

memory kills a person

不明白自己的举动,
但是我能放下的,
也能充耳不闻...

我想做自己,
但是发现,
越做就越糟糕,
很pandai酱?
haha~

很好,
感情对我来说只像灰尘那么微不足道...
轻轻松松,
我作状避开他的注视,
是啊我知道他在看我,
但是就是不理...
不管了,
他有多受伤我不管了...
总不能为他顾虑到他离开为止吧?
你当我傻瓜?
呵呵~
成熟的话,
他该知道他留下的时间不多了,
快要离开的人,
就收起你的心吧。
朋友,
这是我的劝告,
所以你要坚强一点。
老话一句:
天涯何处无芳草?
何况我连野草都不如 =D

另一根萝卜吗?
那个花心大萝卜,
就继续花心咯~
我只是可有可无的尘埃,
而且我不特出好吗?
他继续他的拈花惹草,
我还在等命运的指示...

不是他们,
呵呵~
那么放手又不会怎样~
XD
有人说我可能会后悔哦,
不把我对我这么好的人,
但是没感觉就是那么奇妙的事，
只能挥手再见~
我会后悔?
哈~
不会的,
都说了寂寞要自己负责 =)

there's no way to relieve suffer

我想我真的，
无可奈何的，
有点轻微失眠…
凌晨的一点钟并没有催动我去睡觉…

然后每天都会饿着肚子睡觉，
搞到胃痛，
也一直会觉得很饿。

早上起来精神不振，
头痛有时候会让我想撞墙。
饿着肚子的时候也是。

很像难民的感觉耶…
哈～
我该去习惯吗？
习惯自己不正常？
呵～

算了，
明天运动会，
早点上床去躺着吧…


i stray from love...
xien...


突然我想到，
为什么不让自己远离掉？
而不是甘于膜拜寂寞，
匍匐称臣…

我想要的，
只是一个拥抱…

但愿我真的会长大成熟，
那样的我是不会失控，
在夜里无声尖叫的…
稳住呼吸，
然后把眼泪收回去，
不要激动不要流泪的，
我要去找周老爷…
这样我就可以掠过隐隐作痛的胃，
还有有些不平稳的心跳…
健康万岁呵～






－－让我睡觉吧…扮演自己也是会累的